It's been a while

Bismillah...
Sudah 3 tahun tidak menjenguk dan mengusik blog ini
Syukur ke hadrat Ilahi, hari ini genap 2 bulan sebelum tiba my big day..semoga Allah mempermudahkan segala urusan kami..amin..
Been reading through my future jiran's blog for update on our house progress mmg sgt2 mngujakan..really looking forward to join n build a close community for our baiti jannati..InsyaAllah..

weight

this is a special-edition-story about me & my weight
now that i've moved to a new-not-so-healthy working environment-->office
by doing most of my job by sitting has finally taking its tool on me

my normal weight : 49kg
mood:happy =)
my 2 months after become office inhabitants : 51kg
mood:depressed =( seriously need to diet
my current weight : >51kg
mood:seriously in deep depressed =..(

most people will think it's not a big deal
i also think that way since normally i put on & off weight easily
but well i think i better reconsider it

these are just some of the heartbreaking moments i've experience so far

scene 1 :
on Saturday my big sis is having a kenduri..so i came..
shake hands with bro in law :uishh dah gemok
me:aaa shut up
shake hands with bibik :gemok
me:ape die bik???
bibik: gemok (^_______^)
me:uwaaaaaaaa

scene 2 :

while attending friend's engagement ceremony

friend 1 : ko nmpak berisi laa..bgus2..

me:emmm..

friend 2 : ha'ah la..waa pdatnye tgan die..(sambil meramas-ramas tanganku..)

me:hey jgan la..(aaarrghhhh stop it, this is so not cool ok..)

please exercise widie..

how

i stayed up late for d past 1 week to prepare it for u
our love diary
but u didn't come..
i dressed up nicely for u
but u didn't come..
u just won't come..

i don't want to push u
coz i know u dislike it
but when i don't
u think i didn't mean it
how am i suppose to say what i want now i don't know..
tell me..
how..

i miss u..
i miss the old u..

the one who listen to the words i have in my heart..

heartbroken

i'm just lying here

with tears streaming down my face

i tried to held it back

but i know..it is of no use..

often i blamed myself

for asking u too much

for wanting too much

u made me believed that it is my fault

please understand me

i am..

be patient

i know..

but not this time

stop saying something if u don't mean it

coz now i seriously doubt it

i'm really sorry

coz i really really really doubt it now

how far would u go for ur love

....tell me about it...

coz u know i'll go to the very end of all

...would u go the same?...

i doubt it

~selamat hari raya~

selamat hari raya..
maaf zahir batin andai ada terkasar bahasa atau fizikal atau yg sewaktu dengan nya..

raya tahun nie ada mcam2 perasaan
suka sgat2 dan jgak bosan sgat2

1st day raya :tema kale purple..sume pakai purple except daddy n fmily along(tema biru)..hepi sgat2 =) coz ngee..xbley bagitau ngee..malu nak ckap ngee*uwekk pd diri sendiri* sewel ke hape
2nd day raya :~blik kg..ooooo...blik kg~aku gak yg drive..adoi msak..smpy2 ayer itam,g mrempat kt rmah makcik jap,sume org pon kt ctu coz nk grak ke rmah pak ngah kat yong peng..then g beraya rmah pak ngah..mkan tomyam nyum nyum dgan nasi ape ntah,moghul eh? sumpah aku x prnah tgok nasi tue..gler jakun..ingat spageti or bihun versi baru ahahaha angah x sanggup nk makn coz rupa die cm..mmm..abaikan..
3rd day raya :sorok dlam blik tyme geng marhaban dtang (jgn tiru aksi xbermoral ini)..then blik rmah..drive lg..nak smpy bhau jem Tuhan jer yg tau..siap ada mamat kt jln lg 1 bkak tngkap n lambai kt lane ktrang yg xgrak2 langsung nih,sabor jerk laa..
4rd day raya :nak berehat..bosan..dduk rmah..perabeh kueh raya sndri..
5th day raya :hyper bosan..tp smpat lg g pet shop baru kat area rmah..best!except ccing besar cm dlm fear factor tue eeuuww gross..kne blik melaka coz rabu dah nak keje..tidak!!!!

new job

penolong pengarah farmasi (kuatkuasa)

never knew i'll be one..
at first rase cm nak bunuh diri
coz dah terlebey excited utk carik rumah & move ke alor gajah
(dah siap kemas brg dlm kotak dush dush!)
tup tup xdpat order g alor gajah
dpat surat g kk melaka tengah YABEDABEDOOOO
12.45 tgah ari..harap maklum surat awak dibatalkan..
awak kene g....cawangan penguatkuasa farmasi..
=.......(
tp confius..sume org pon ckap
:ha,ok larr tue
:best ape..duk ofis..
:best la enforcement..give it a try ok?
kak pet siap ckap:u're d chosen one
errkk

now..here i'm..after almost 2 weeks..
so far so good..
i'm trying hard to keep up the pace
afterall law is never my thing hehe
but anything thrown my way, i will try my best to deal with it
nothing can stop me
(chewah,poyos..ayat yg lg snang ialah-->redha jer laa widi oii..)

see it at d bright side
$i got extra allowance
*no need to squeeze in for parking no more
~i have my own desk n 24/7 internet
**my boss & colleague are super duper nice!!

see it at d dark side
!have to be mobile 8am-5pm
!i think this job suits man better
!dealing with people and court expose u any possibilities...including being hurt..ouch!(i'll get my car tinted done by next month promise)

~~in depth~~

22/08/10

sometimes things r just so out of our control
things that u always wanted in life....
or plans that u always had in mind....
or life that u always dreamt of....
they might not go your way

what about the things i've always wanted in life?
..i'm breaking my own heart..
i'll bury it deeply and carefully down under
to a place that u'll never find
even me,myself can never find..forever..